After losing my little boy at full 39 weeks + 5 days due to pre eclampsia, many days I felt I could no longer go on. There was no light at the end of the tunnel and I felt completely helpless. I suffered from PTSD and agraphobia following our experience, however 2 years on we have given birth to our rainbow, a little girl who is thriving and whilst we will never forget W, we live with his memory and not in his shadow. I found the below poem particularly helpful during the dark days and now have this framed in our home, to remind us never to give up.
I'm sorry you have found yourself here, hold on....
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An Angel Never Dies - Author Unknown
Don't let them say, I wasn't born
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave
I've loved you from the start.
Although my body you can't hold,
It doesn't mean I'm gone.
This world was worthy, not, of me
God chose that I move on.
I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face.
You have my word, I'll fill your arms
Someday we will embrace.
You'll hear that it was "meant to be,
God doesn't make mistakes"
But that won't soften your worst blow...
Or make your heart not ache.
I'm watching over all you do,
another child you'll bear.
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.
There will come a time, I promise you
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you'll understand.
Although, I've never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes...
That doesn't mean I never "was"
An angel never dies.